Word Of The Day

fructuous \FRUHK-choo-uhs\, adjective:

Fruitful; productive

Also; something that I have not been today. I arrived at work at 10:30 - and have been able to enter two credit card payments - and blog a lot. There apparantly are not enough system resources for me to do my job. That's hot.

The corporate financial analyst on loan from our parent company asked me to go to lunch with him. It's all business so I wonder what he has to discuss with me. We shall see.

A Day Of Randomness

So last Friday I met a beautiful Chinese guy, A.C. We talked for a little bit and got to know each other, but we kissed a lot more than we talked. He has these perfect lips and is really sweet. So we hung out and made out for awhile, exchanged numbers, talked about hanging out again and then went our separate ways.

Saturday I was supposed to go out again with Jason Sechrest but I felt sick all day. I think my body just needed a day to relax and slow down. I took several naps throughout the day and watched The Devil Wears Prada and a couple of other movies. Cable is wonderful!

Sunday is when things got interesting. My roommates had a few people over for a BBQ & pool party. My friends were all otherwise engaged so I only hung out for a bit. Then A.C. called me and invited me to the beach. They picked me up from my house and we went to Venice beach. The spark between us seemed to have dissipated but his friends were a ton of fun so it was okay. Two of the guys were from Boston - and pretty much only know each other because they are the only two gays at their school who like to go out to the clubs. Then there was this other kid who sang constantly but sounded really good - he's about to be signed with Sire records. They met him a few weeks back at San Francisco pride. Then there was a girl visiting from Hawaii who only knew one of the people there. So basically it was a group of strangers from different parts of the country that decided to go to the beach together. I felt slightly awkward initially but we all knew how random the group that we had compiled was.

I got a ton of sun at the beach so as soon as I am not red - I will look great ;). The water was beautiful. I hadn't been to the beach since I went to Hawaii with Classy. I'm going to try to go more before the end of summer.

After we were all burnt we headed to the mini mansion so I could shower and change and then we went downtown. A.C. had to go to his grandmothers house for dinner (because he is only here from Boston for four days). They showered and we did some shots and then went to Pink Taco in Century City. The food was really good - but there seems to be much more hype about the place then necessary.

From there we proceeded to my house, then back downtown to pick up A.C., then back to West Hollywood to barhop. Overall it was a great Sunday. =) Of course it bites that we all live in different places - but it was a great experience.

I hope you had a good weekend as well.

Relief From Stress

My job has persistently consumed a vast majority of my time and energy lately. It's easy to leave my work at work and relax once I am home but while I am at the office the stress factor is fairly constant. I returned home from work one day last around 6 and changed out of my work clothes and into my pj's because I was about to do laundry and just do things around the house. I watched TV for awhile and was content with the idea of staying in and then my phone rang; Jason Sechrest invited me to dinner and a movie. I quickly agreed because it has been a long time since I hung out with someone other than the people I consider my close friends and my roommates.

We headed for the Arclight first, where we saw "Joshua". The movie was really good actually. I did not see a trailer for it beforehand not had I even heard of it so I was happy it turned out good. The soundtrack is creepy, and awesome. The plot was really an exaggerated example of how things can change with the addition of someone new to a family. Jealousy can cause people to do some wild things.

After the movie we went to the Cheesecake Factory at The Grove. I had a bunch of lemon drop martinis and a little food to. The one thing that bites about the Cheesecake Factory is that usually if you do not go there with the intent to ONLY have cheesecake, you don't end up having any at all because the food portions are so big. That's okay, it's probably best that I didn't have any. After dinner we headed to The Abbey - all the while bonding over Tori.

I had never hung out with Jason alone before (other than the time I jacked off on his couch for the camera) so I was unsure that we would have much to talk about. We actually had a blast though. Over the past year or so I have spent very little time getting to know new people. I have a few great friendships but have been realizing lately that I am far to dependent on them. I forgot that there are tons of other people that I could interact with and learn from.

Frustrations

I wanted to blog now. I mean there are some things that I want to say but feel compelled not to. "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all." Fine, however sometimes the truth hurts - and its not nice, but it still has to be said.

Yet another decision that has to be made by people every day. When does nice no longer matter?

In this instance, I will hold onto my thoughts and come back when I have something nice to say.

Think I am enabler? Aren't we all?

Obsession

definition: Recurrent and persistent thought, impulse, or image experienced as intrusive and distressing. Recognized as being excessive and unreasonable even though it is the product of one's mind. This thought, impulse, or image cannot be expunged by logic or reasoning.

What not to say

when you are unaware of the presence of the President of the company you work for:

"The company must be shutting down."

His response: "I don't think so....that was bad timing huh?"

Train of Thought

So, I've spent a fair amount of time (whatever that means) this morning looking for some photos. I wanted to find something symbolic of switching tracks. After searching through several photos that just didn't seem right I realized that in order for me to switch tracks, I would actually need to be on a track to start with.
Right now my tracks looks like this.



That is great - as long as I don't look like this.

I got a little side tracked (woka woka) at this point looking for a photo of a woman in a dress falling over her train - you would think it would be easier to find. Now I guess I have to wait til I see it happen in person so I could run over and yell TRAIN WRECK! I did find this hottie modeling for the FALL line of something or other. I could definitely see myself in those pants *wank* I conduit with that conductor. ; ) get it? get it?




Then I thought if I were ever put on a track that went round and round like this



I would probably leave it looking like this


And then I found this picture. How long have the paps been stalking me? and whos the chick?

Bored

Wow, I am @ work right now, and actually bored. I wish that I had something interesting to blog about but really I have nothing. I have been at work for four hours and unable to do anything besides move emails around. The systems are down, and yet we are stuck here at our desks, forced to stare at our blank screens and listen to music. It's these moments that I start to consider leaving my job and simply just doing videos and escorting. I've been escorting off and on for a couple of years now, and have been realizing recently that I really do enjoy it. I meet some new and interesting people from different walks of life with drastically varied experiences. When I first started escorting it was honestly just about the money. Now I actually look forward to meetings - most of the time. I won't go so far as to glamorize it completely, but I will say that for me escorting has been a very beneficial adventure. Things have actually been picking up. Soon, it seems that my full time job won't really be worth it. Who knows though. One more person gave their notice today. Soon I will have seniority!

Life has been good lately. Uneventful - but good.

Another One Bites The Dust

Yesterday the 6th person in 13 months gave their notice. Geee whiz! I didn't get home from work until late so was unable to blog. It gets a little annoying when I blog @ home anyway because the blogger does not look and function the same on my mac as it does on my computer at work.
I mailed out my request for a copy of my driving record. I hope they don't charge me extra to cover the cost of postage for such a large, heavy, pack of papers. I figure I should get my license since I'll be getting a car this year. At least that is the plan.
Not much has been happening lately. Just going to work, catching up on the gossip, and dreading going back to work. I guess I've just been annoyed @ several aspects of my life lately. I'll be back in a bit - to write more on my lunch break....

Turn your radio on

Please enjoy the music while you wait.



My post will be up by the end of the day. Thanks for being patient. =)

Ketchup

I have been meaning to catch up on my blog. I don't exactly like to go through moment by moment recaps of my experiences. Angel Benton does a pretty detailed recap most of the trips I go on with my friends. I do a lot more....skimming and focus on the stand out moments. I have photos to put up but you can probably find the photos I have, and more on Brandon Bakers blog. As soon as I get a new camera, I'll be able to put up a ton of my own photos. Also, the internet connection I am supposed to have in my room at home is nonexistent so it's been taking me awhile to get around to blogging.

I have been outrageously busy at work! Our team has six different Priority #1 tasks - each of which is more important than the others and needs to be taken care of immediately. We've added a magical white board to the wall that our new CEO thinks is going to help our department keep better track of our numbers. All it is really going to do is take up more time because we have to gather the stats and write them up on the board. Five people in our 11 person department have left the company in the last year. That should serve as an indicator that there is something wrong huh? Oye, sure I haven't finished school yet but it doesn't take a genius to know that when you add more sales people, who make mistakes and enter fraudulent information, and you add 59 new markets and thousands of new accounts, perhaps you should hire more support as well. End rant about work.

More later...

Back from Chicago

photos and stories to come....must work for now.

Slogan for Sale

mmmmmmmm yum

Fat Kid Getting Scared

Hottie McHotHot

HIGHLARIOUS!

I saw this on PerezHilton.

There's No Place Like Home

Home again and it feels soooooo good. Angel and I flew back early this morning. The other boys, Brandon, Fabrice, and Rusty stayed an extra day because we missed the flight. Well, technically we didn't miss it, they just didn't let us on the plane. We were there with plenty of time to spare but they would not budge. Both Angel and myself had to be back at work today so we had no choice but to pay the extra money and buy new tickets.

Guatemala was a blast though! This was certainly a trip to remember. We stayed at a baby brokerage the first day - no really babies were for sale for $30,000.00 or 225,000Quetzals. Brandon pushed Fabrice through a glass door. We charged up about $1250.00 (U.S.) in mistakes! So much for the great rate on the flights huh? We rode jet skis, braved the crazy dog, horse, and people ridden freeways, climbed the Mayan ruins, and made some great memories. I'll be able to post more on all of this later once I'm home from work.

I have to say though that I am so much more grateful than I was before for living in the U.S.A. I am glad we got to do an amazing whirl wind tour of Guatemala, since I don't see myself visiting again in the future. You never know what's going to happen but I don't think that I'll plan on going back. Of course, when you hang out with the group that I hang with - plans are irrelevant.

I'll be able to post photos once B gets back.

A Mistake

I'm gonna make a mistake
I'm gonna do it on purpose
I'm gonna waste my time

'Cause I'm full as a tick
And I'm scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine

And when the day is done, and I look back
And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure had fun, so

I'm gonna fuck it up again
I'm gonna do another detour
Unpave my path

And if you wanna make sense
What you looking at me for
I'm no good at math

And when I find my way back
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I've acquired quite a taste for
A well-made mistake I wanna make a mistake
Why can't I make a mistake?

I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
Answer you, hell no
I've acquired quite a taste for
A well-made mistake, I wanna make a mistake
Why can't I make a mistake

I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

-Fiona Apple

Blog of Realizations

1. I think I'm just beginning to understand how fucked up I still am from my relationship with my most recent ex. Perhaps now that I realize this, I will be able to improve that.

2. While I may do what is right for me, I do not always do what is best for me.

3. I am more honest than I thought.

4. I should spend more time with my family, which means I need to buy a car. Watch out California drivers!

5. I am more mature and responsible and it feels good.

6. I am obsessed with my friends - and I don't think that is a bad thing.

7. In high school I was a great writer. I can be again.

8. I really should finish school......one day.